When the Bar 2010 results came out, I was trying my way to go home via Cagayan de Oro City from Manila. I was in Manila for a business trip and I purposely left my laptop at home to shed off 2 kilos of luggage weight. So, for more or less 3 days I was cybernetically out of reach.

I was desperately waiting for the bar results to see if my best friend-future associate attorney could make it through. It usually takes 6 months for the Examiners to finish checking the test booklets and so all bar examinees have to undergo a sadist process of waiting and praying... assuming that they would actually pray...

As for me, although my slice of this ordeal was over when I made it in 2009 Bar, I also awaited in desperation the results as a puppy waits on milk.

So, from the CDO airport, we (I with my hubby)headed right away to Agora Bus station to catch the last Aircon bus. We hopped in 10 minutes before departure time and settled a little bit to contact a few friends over the phone.

Atty. Dennis, another friend who works in Manila, broke the news that only 3 from our School made it. My "manok" who we will call as "Shy"was not included among the bar passers.

It was the longest and saddest trip for me. So far. I tried to contact her but her line is off.
I tried to text her, and luckily she responded that she will be fine.

I could not get the words to tell her what I really felt. I was sad for her. Nah, I was devastated and I wanted to cry waterfall. I wanted to shout why?????

I prayed for her to pass. She deserves to pass. She is a brilliant student. I know she is ready. But why???

It is hard to comprehend this. However, I could not question the wisdom of the Examiners nor ask God what his purposes are....

My friend Shy had desperately tried her best to be a lawyer. It was our plan that if she makes it then we will work together as partners in my Law Office.

I told her God has a reason for everything. I said to her over the phone as if I was swallowing a chunk of ice...

But I always trust in God. I entrust Him everything in my life like I depended no one else but Him. For now, (regarding the sad news) the reason is still elusive but He is the God of Wisdom, the Alpha and the Omega... as much as I wanted to immediately know what happened there.... I have to surrender this case to Him.